Should I do the right thing and keep taking my pills or give in to the curiousity?

I've been medicated for five years straight and I want to see how I do on my own now. However, I know this is typical bipolar behavior; I know my meds might not work again if I go off and back on them; I know I don't have the time or money to have a major breakdown if it doesn't work out. Frankly, I'm afraid of what might happen off my meds, but at the same time I'm sick of living this half-life in a medicated stupor. Yes, talk to my doctor. He knows. He thinks it's better than the alternative.